Impossible To Change

Its people like you.
I should never had trusted, ever.
Who. Will. Never. Change.
And one day, you will get to feel hurt.
I'll make sure of it.

Not so much the same

I'm trying this new thing where im not dependant on someone, which is a big step for me. I've been so use to having someone there for me, for the last few years. And im actually free, as i like to say it. I have this family though, they are brilliant, we aren't related as such, But they are the only ones who i will depend on. Although these changes in me are different, im liking it. I'm happy, I am. Finally.

Wishes.

Every 11:11, the one birthday candle a year, the eyelashes that fall, and the rare but amazing times you catch a shooting star in the sky. I think of you, don't worry, you'll never read this, so i haven't told the secret. But everytime i wonder, am i wasting these wishes? I have now started wishing you away, not away from my life, but from my heart. These feelings that have been floating inside of me, for over a year now. The ones that ruined alot of things, changed me greatly, you know the ones? If you can live your life, so can i. I'm done waiting, because i'm seriously waiting for nothing. So from now, every 11:11, the next birthday candle i blow out, the eyelashes that will fall out, and the next amazingly rare shooting star i see, i'll be thinking of you, just not the way i use to.

I'm Adopted

2006, i started caloundra primary, and some creepo teacher sat me next to you.
And since then you've been stuck with me.
Pretty sure our friendship has been a heck of a rollercoaster,
The times i've hated you, then the other where i just wanted to make out with you?
And last year, we decided that im practically apart of your family.
Like when you buy a new dog, and it just makes a place in the family.
Thats me.
"Aboriginal Foster Child" but im not really aboriginal.
If i could of have it any other way,
It would sitting next you in class earlier than year 6.
We are now set for life, so make room for me in your house.
Love you long time SOPHIE :)

Forgot About That

How much easier it was,
When I didn't have to see you everyday.
When I didn't get reminded of what we were, what we could have been.
Seeing you live your life happily without me, although I can do it myself.
Not going to lie, I do miss you, I do think about you.
But then something clicks tellling me that no matter how hard this is, it's right.
Always and forever

Our Adventures

5 and half litres of cokeeee devoured by me justine courtney, plus some help from sophie, molly and katie :) we had a great two nights at justines houseyyyy. 1st night, molly courtney justine and myself we had some disturbing times, along with sex places, lots of talking, and just great fun. first sleepover with molly too, was very fun :)
Second night, sophie justine courtney and myself, had WAY too much energy after a long day at wet n wild, some crazy noongas came out, and someonee had a little date ;), more coke was drank, and chocolateeeeee

Wet n wild was that fun! The drive down and back was greaatt tooo.
All in all, was a very great two days, with half our famileh :)

Selfish

I miss you